Im with you on that whole – im not addicted – thing.
I see myself as quite a bright guy and found that I was lying to myself about the fact that I was craving it. It came to a head when I was flying out on business to America and had a glass of wine with dinner and racked up a load of that crap and was up all night. I was an absolute basket case the next day and only just got through the meeting. Since then I vowed to stay away. Its been about 6 weeks now and ive not had a sniff (pardon the pun) of it!
Ive obviously spent time with the beautiful Mandy when playing out 🙂
I think its about association with me. I associate certain things with having a serious club night or festival/party. In my mind I can keep them in their box and it doesnt leak over. The problem came when the lines blurred and it was integrated into my day to day life.
Awesome post Drugexplorer!
