Party Vibe

well done lola pixie,

i remember when i had to stop pills.. id been knocking them out and takin them for about three years, when i was hit by a horrific depression for a whole week. at the time, i just thought my life was shit and i was really unhappy, but five days later i woke in a good mood and it dawned on me that the shit feelings had come from the pills. 4 hours euphoria for a weeks depression? not the best deal goin, i thought. i told my self i was to do no pills for a year, and stuck to it. not amoment too soon. after two years i felt proper again, after many bouts of self doubty and deppression. im glad i got out when i did, coz some mates werent so lucky. i now will do mdma if it is the shit and i havent for six months. i stick to mothernatures treats- ganja and shrooms. and if ive been a good boy for long enough, LOADS OF ACID!

i find i can now dance till six in the morn no probs, absolutely sober (maybe a beer or 2 and some spliffs) and the next day i feel like a king. if the tunes are good, i can make myself come up (penny eyes, tracers and everything) just through positivity.

drugs teach you alternate realities, but the door gets left ajar. you dont nessessarily need the drugs to get back there.

good luck and take care, of body and mind

true said by the globaloon, a bit of dedicated time to winding your body down, relaxing and even toning yourself up makes such a difference to your well being. having no disciline to stick at stuff, ive done a bit of yoga, bit of tai chi, and a bit of tai kwon do and other bits and bobs ive picked up in festies and fp’s. ive got a couple of different patterns , exercises and forms which really help keep me feeling good. theres nothing like a lovely massive stretch at anytime, esspecially when your mashed.

tai chi especially is amazing. ive read quite a bit about it since the local practice shut, and the more i read the more i realise that it isnt just exercises but an attitude to life which can be enhanced and developed through meditation and exercise combined. the rushes you get and the endorphines you release into your body are lush; after practicing for a couple of months, i can produce electrical buildup in any part of my body (chi) and i am working on the various techniques of transfering that energy to other people. one of the most worthwhile things i have ever learnt. tai chi is seriously trippy…

…im off for a stretch

i once took E in the fridge (Brixton) and completely became freaked out. i had returned after a year studying in spain and had taken it there many times and loved it. the medic sorted me out luckily and i chilled out, went home. but the next day there was something wrong. not a come down, it was a deep change of mental state. i couldnt explain it but what you described in your episode about freaking out in your room and your boyfriend having to chill you out reminded me strongly of the same.

the next day i had to go and pick up my girlfriend from the airport, but on the way there i could hardly drive. and i couldnt feel myself. i tried to forget it all, put it out of my mind but i couldnt. i tried to explain it to her, but she thought it was just a comedown. i couldnt eat well so i went the next week to the doctor, piece of shit! just laughed at me and said thats what happens when you take drugs. cheers mate i thought, it was only after nearly half a year that i began to get back pockets of myself between the “nausia” state. now its 5 years later. and i am better than i could ever hope to be. but only after a long long break. to find myself again. now im stronger and more passionate for it. but it was something at the time that felt like it would last forever.