The Inner-Thoughts of Brethus:
Deja-Vu Misconstrues
Living life is harder for some, than it is for others. Mind manipulation can completely derail the tracks of a person’s mental state. Like me, for example, I fell into a heavy depression due to my grandparents death and smoked weed to feel enlightened but took LSD to live in the moment.
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When acid was first introduced to me I instantly fell in love with the feelings and visuals I experienced. About every 2 days I would take more acid upping the dosage to feel the sensations taking away the pain I felt thinking of my deceased grandparents.
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Anyway. As I indulged in frequent use of LSD, and psilocybin mushrooms for that matter, the world around me became more, controllable, in a way. Every now and again there would be days where I would get severe cases of Deja-vu that would stop me in my tracks and make me do a double take.
What stopped me was that when the Deja-Vu moments occurred I remembered specifically dreaming of that exact moment in time but maybe weeks to months before the date it happened.
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As time passed the acid was still being fully used it and just kept getting worse and worse with Deja-Vu moments, tracers, and I eventually self diagnosed myself with HPPD (Hallucinogen Persisting Perception Disorder). Although it makes me a hypochondriac I still till’ this day know I suffered various effects from the disorder.
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After a break from my psychedelics the effects eventually passed on and were unnoticeable, however, I could occasionally predict what was going to happen a few seconds to a minute before the event occurred.
What is this life and how is it really ran?
I don’t even know what questions to ask anymore.
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The effects withered away after some time when I decided to take a psychedelic break for a while. Even now most of the effects have past but on rare occasion I still get that strong sense of Deja-Vu and wonder if it will ever fully go away.
