Party Vibe

Done everything and had a 3-4 year smack habbit, pretty much fryed my brain & teath with uppers, destroyed my guts with downers and developed ocd and paranoia with pcycadelics. Dont regret anything but wish i’d done it in moderation. I’ve just spent 3 months inside for a drug offence commited years ago even though i do vertualy no drugs at all now bar the very ocasional line of coke when its offerd which is a rare ocurence.

To be honest I wish I’d never took drugs now and got a decent job met a nice lass and chucked a couple of kids out! But then again I wouldnt be the man I am now, a man with fuck all but a plot of mud and a sound system when all the folk I went to school with have settled down with a wife, mortgage and kids!

Its your life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

uv seen more and done more than most of the wife and kidders can ever hope to experience, i know things change as you age but at the moment the idea of that lifestyle makes me cringe, working just to live feeding kids having your wife, sitting home and watching tv, that quote from trainspotting got in my head

some times yes … others no … it depends on my state of mind … if im feeling strong enuff to handel it .. the no … but if i am not in the right state of mine to take them .. them yes .. i feel bad regret …:group_hug

I dont regret them – they have helped me become a better person and get issues sorted which I doubt would have ever been possible without them. Now they are fun when I do them

No regrets at all, maybe i wish i hadn’t started so young.

I wouldn’t say i feel shame for it either, but in no way am i proud of it.

i checked ‘no’ although there have been a few times when i’ve woken up and thought “why oh why did i do / say that last night”… things i wouldn’t have done sober

but i don’t feel ashamed as none of it was really that bad. i also don’t think it’s healthy or useful to regret things. if i don’t like the way something has gone or the way i did something, i try and focus that feeling to motivate me to do something positive to change my circumstances or my outlook.

i’ve just taken up kiting after seeing a few guys doing stuff like this at the beach round here… excuse the soundtrack if you don’t like metal, :sign0011: although the lyrics are quite relevant to you, Mustard. I know you said fuck sport and I detest the idea of sport, especially team sport and having to learn & abide by rules, compete etc… but my kite gives me a good work out and leaves me with a real buzzy afterglow after a good session. 😎

i’m lucky though… i got away with caning it for years and now choose the odd occasion to have a little dabble cos i’m married with 2 kids. being a dad has it’s stresses and strains, but at least i have my ‘meaning of life’ sorted out. :bebe:

dunno what advice to offer apart from leave the weed alone at least until you have some new interests and friends… weed seems harmless enough but will keep you in a rut

also, have you spoken to any of your mates about being tired of smoking and drinking all the time? don’t try to preach (I doubt you would anyway) and you might find some of them are feeling the same way

remember, boredom is there for a reason… to make you try new things 😉

I only feel regret when doing drugs have some sort of negative effect on my working life.

I run a successful company and my actions have a direct effect on not only my family but the families of all the people that work with me.

When I go on a mad one at the weekend that carried on a bit too long, I may not recover fully until mid week.

Too tired on Monday to work that extra couple of hours = less productivity
Too paranoid on Tuesday means shouting at colleague = less productivity
Too depressed on Wednesday means having no time for a customer = less productivity

you get the picture.

It’s all about moderation on a Friday for me nowadays!!!