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December 28, 2007 at 11:02 pm

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Tank Girl

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re reading my reply and others the only time I have felt ‘shameful’ well more embarrassed,
were due to my behaviour on alcohol,
with people that didnt ‘know’ me and took what said wrong

(I thought I was being funny – and with my firends they would have known that)

but it was with people I sort of worked with and that I did regret……
but then I’m not mad enough to take ‘drugs’ with my work colleges as I’d get sacked 😉
I stopped drinking for 6 weeks after that incident – til I got over my self and thought fuck em :laugh_at:
December 29, 2007 at 1:16 am

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GiantMidget

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My only regret with drugs is weed. I well wish i never touched that stuff cos the stuff fucked my head up and life up for a good couple of years! It’s weird but give me coke mandy K all that stuff and i’m fine but give me a joint and it proper fucks my head up! :crazy:
December 29, 2007 at 7:15 am

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General Lighting

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No, not at all.

Drug use may have held me back slightly (i.e not having a degree or going for the more “high flying” jobs), but I have never done anything particularly evil or regrettable because of drugs – and that is everything from alcohol even to some of the worse class A’s which I have used on rare occasions but I still have a fairly clear conscience.

There are times when I may have been a bit snappy at people on comedowns but I never took it to the point where it would result in the Police being called to the family home because some of the ravers I knew were having actual physical fights with their parents (its stuff like this which is why the riot cops justify closing down parties in such a harsh manner!)

Plus in all the 17 years I have been partying I have been in full time employment for 16 of them (my only long career break was after the dot-com crash in 2001 and I was back in work by 2002).

Because of working hard I built up my IT and business skills over the years to the same (or better) level of many graduates, and have been lucky to in recent times find employers who appreciated that (maybe this is even “karma” because I didn’t do anything too evil when I was high!)

IMO whatever laws I was breaking and whatever rules I was bending I was still using my energy to support this country and society by work and paying taxes, and trying not to add to any social problems even if my weekend activities were a bit outlandish to some..

I’ve also now managed to get a job I actually find fulfilling – of course there are some boring/stressful bits but I also have a lot more freedom and opportunity there, so I don’t actually mind putting in the effort (it is a bit more intellectually demanding than previous jobs of mine).

Because of this I’ve voluntarily calmed down a lot of my lifestyle. No policeman, NHS staff or rehab made me do this, I just thought “at last my life is moving in a good direction, time to grow up a bit”.

I do feel I’ve drifted away a bit from friends because I’m not drinking or getting mashed as much but a lot of this is due to moving area as well and leading a busier life, and a lot of physical distance between me and my newer friends who are spread out across a far larger space than in London or SE England – and perhaps the age difference – when you are in your mid thirties just “going to the pub” gets a bit boring when you were doing just that at age 15!!! (Ironically, I also tend to get ID checked way more today than 20 years ago!)

A lot of the time I also choose to stay in myself, for the same reasons as Shockraver, I’ve matured to the point where I don’t want to risk all I have achieved just for one weekend nor make life difficult for others.
December 30, 2007 at 1:38 am

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MisterDuck

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globalloon wrote:

also, have you spoken to any of your mates about being tired of smoking and drinking all the time? don’t try to preach (I doubt you would anyway) and you might find some of them are feeling the same way

this bit is true in my case, happened last friday

as in the pub, as usual, and there was a group of us, some have dabbled in drugs some havent, safe to say i was the most experienced ilegal drug taker there n i dont think i take alot!

anyways i put my pint down and just said “you know what… i’m really fucking bored of alcohol” and nearly all of em felt exactly the same

and so we’ve organised a few nights where other substances will be used, and i cant wait raaa
December 30, 2007 at 4:28 am

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JonnyQuest

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boothy wrote:

this bit is true in my case, happened last friday

as in the pub, as usual, and there was a group of us, some have dabbled in drugs some havent, safe to say i was the most experienced ilegal drug taker there n i dont think i take alot!

anyways i put my pint down and just said “you know what… i’m really fucking bored of alcohol” and nearly all of em felt exactly the same

and so we’ve organised a few nights where other substances will be used, and i cant wait raaa

we baught pink kangeroos off a fireman in the pub when we were 16 and bored ol alcohol

happy memorys though that pub needed our underage business so bad they new we were 16 and had no choice was back street though not to risky from police
December 30, 2007 at 10:30 pm

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globalloon wrote:

i checked ‘no’ although there have been a few times when i’ve woken up and thought “why oh why did i do / say that last night”… things i wouldn’t have done sober

yeah i meen i don’t regret takeing drugs in the first place .. i just reget having taken them on some ocations ..if that makes sence

and yeah stear clear of smokeing shit loads of weed .. then i guess .. every thing in moderation :laugh_at:
December 31, 2007 at 5:27 pm

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ninabutt

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I used to feel guilty when I would tell my parents I’d be “at the movies” or “sleeping over a friends house” when I was out rolling face or tripping my balls off. >_<.
But as for doing them; not one regret.
I believe through doing drugs I have become a better, and strangely enough, more mentally stable individual…
Does that make sense?
I used to be in and out of mental facilities, but through mind expansion while using drugs, I’ve kept myself.. sane???..
January 1, 2008 at 8:20 pm

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JonnyQuest

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fuck drugs forever
January 1, 2008 at 8:22 pm

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MisterDuck

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i’ve regretted things i’ve done whilst under the influence.
January 1, 2008 at 8:25 pm

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GiantMidget

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Same as mate same as, Trick is to accept you’ve done em and treat em as one of life’s (albeit sometimes cruel) experiences. :group_hug
January 2, 2008 at 6:36 am

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archduke

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The one time I got high before class I realized how stupid I was being and what an incredible risk I was taking. (I go to a public high school in the US.)

Tried not to let it bother me though.
January 2, 2008 at 7:03 am

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bones

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Mustard wrote:

I have smoked weed pretty much daily for the last 8 odd years, really like my acid and have done it countless times in the last 4/5 years. I have always managed to avoid heroin and crack as I couldn’t trust myself, but have dabbled in most other things.

I have had some of the best times of my life whilst on various chemicals, and I have met some wicked people etc.. However I’m getting older now and am becoming aware I cannot continue this way of life without it having some negative effects. Seen a lot of people go down hill in recent years, can’t have that happen to me.

I have come to realise in recent months that apart from the drug culture etc I have very few interests. All my friends are also heavily into their drugs. I have been trying to cut down my usage heavily recently, and to some extent have succeeded. Because of this I have realised there isn’t alot I am interested in. I’ve been getting pretty bored. I have found socialising with my mates tricky, without at least having a drink or something, as most social events revolve around some drug even if its just a joint or a drink etc.. I have managed to avoid doing any class a’s in like 3 months or something now… Still had alot of trouble stopping the smokes tho, not managed a day without. I think this is mainly due to the social aspect. I need a hobby, I just can’t for the life of me think of anything that strikes me as interesting, fuck games and sports etc..

What do people here do besides partying as hobbies, I know that sound kind of stupid, but there really isn’t a lot that seams to interest me, am I the only one who thinks like this?

And how do those of you who are really engrossed in the drug-culture, those of you who post on different drug-oriented boards, those of you whose life and friendships revolve around drugs… deal with this? When stripped of drugs, what are you left with? Who are you? Is there any substance to you and your life?

Maybe most of this shame/regret is just the workings of my own personal dilemma. I feel like I’m coming to realize that this kind of lifestyle probably won’t lead me to a full and happy existence, that it is ultimately likely to leave me feeling emptier on the inside.

It is a fact of human existence, for man and woman to change their state of mind!

We start this process at a very young age without realising it…think back to when you were younger, and you would spin around with your arms out…you would spin so much that you would get dizzy, fall over, and laugh your head off…then you would do it again, and again…taking drugs is no different from that…

I have been smoking weed for 25 years, and used to smoke 2-3oz a week a one time, it was constant. I rarely take anything now, as I got into the eeee’s and trips and everything else….I had the best time of my life for years, until the forces that be sent me to prison for enjoying my life the best way I knew how to…it did not stop doing what I wanted too though, as soon as I was out, I was at it again, until I simply could not take them anymore, because they stopped working…

With every high, there is a bigger low…but stay away from the smack and crack, they are true killers, my young bruv died from smack one year ago…

All I can suggest is for you to find out about what you are taking, the long term consequences of these substances, and then make your mind up if you are prepared to let it happen to you…

As for life, it is shit and always will be, you will never be content, no matter what, if its not drugs then it will be drink, or money or sex, or something else that you will never be satisfied with…

When I chaned my life and stopped the drugs, I was so fuckin bored with everything, that I had to do something substantial to make up for it, so I started an honours degree in psychology…now I study people instead of drugs…

If I could take drugs for the rest of my life, then I would, but after years and years of drug taking, you build a big tolerance and I spent every fucking penny I had on drugs…chasing a buzz that my mind could never have again…

Life is miserable all the fucking time, with or without them, it is up to you what you want to do, if you carry on buzzing, then just be sensible!
January 3, 2008 at 3:26 am

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JonnyQuest

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bit of a bleak outlook life is fun u jsut gotta make it that way and im not daying use drugs(although they are a shortcut) i dont know what im saying
January 5, 2008 at 5:20 pm

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True-Innocence

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I don’t really feel bad about taking drugs to be truthful i mean ok i have done some stupid things while on drugs like.

I remember at college i was about to go in for a test and i got blazed at lunch with a friend and well i just couldn’t concentrate on the test what so ever.

But just like what a few other people have said here its not really a good thing to keep thinking about the screw ups you have made in the past because what is done is done.

Some or maby even all of you might not even agree with what I’m guna say but i have lived thinking we are all going to brownbread at the end of the day so enjoy life while you can ok it will most probably result in a painfull death for me but at-least i have met some fricking awesome people doing it.

The way i see life is getting up 5 days a week for work then coming back and just going to bed then waking up again to do the same thing ok i know you make your life by doing things but on the other hand when you popped your clogs you haven’t got any worries of paying bills or being late for work etc

So for me the sooner i go haha the better, Some people i tell the way i feel seem to think I’m a bad person for how i think but to be horniest I’m not really bothred but thinking like that doesn’t make me a bad person dose it?

I remember at school i used to get bullied a lot and i tryed to tuffen up but doing that i find it really hard to show my true feeling for my firends and other people but drugs help me be a very very confident person also help me show my true feelings on top of that they are helping me become a more open person.

Lol reading that now and i just did not understand any of that =/ defiantly should brush up on my punctuation.

Peace ^_^ :group_hug
January 5, 2008 at 6:53 pm

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Cinimod

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I don’t feel regret or shame for using drugs. One of my housemates is very anti drugs, and he gives me a load of bull pretty much all the time, trying to make me feel ashamed of taking drugs, but it doesn’t work at all. tbh, I think that the experience has made me a better person, and that he could really do with a joint everynow and then, he’s far too uptight for my liking, (but strangely, its me, “the pillhead”, who is applying for a load of internships and trying to get a good job when I finish uni). I think that the fact I have tried them (some of them at least), without automatically dismissing them as bad is the better attitude to have, rather than his attitude of “it’s illegal for a reason”, lol.
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