Party Vibe

COCAINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NxGDUuo_rqA

Oh no.

I always feel it’s a shame I don’t have more drugs.

Always regret not buying more lol.

I always think ‘what if someone needs me right now and I’m off my face?’

Actually quite a tough question. Do I regret taking drugs altogether? No, not really, in fact, as much as they’ve damaged me; to a degree they’ve also kept me alive. I’m pretty certain without drugs I’d have had more suicide attempts under my belt.

But long term are they a reasonable solution to my problems or a likely key to a happy and satisfying life; no they certainly aren’t.

The one I have a real love hate relationship with though is weed. Been on the stuff for nearly 9 years now and can’t quite cut it out. I may go a day or two but then something will trigger me and I’ll go get some weed. If I don’t, I’ll start self harming or trash the house.

Looking for the right combination of medicine, therapy and mental attitude to pull me through this show called life without crippling depression and anxiety. Still searching though, hence I still smoke despite not really wanting to, I’m more than bored of the short term fix though, and memory loss is no advantage.

@Tryptameanie 585928 wrote:

I have so many regrets in my life through drink and drugs it’s unreal yet I would no doubt sit here and argue all day long they were anything but

The shit I’ve done and the damage I’ve caused directly as a result of drink and drugs is disgraceful so if I said I had no regrets about my drug taking life I’d be lying more than usual.

It is very difficult to come to terms with with an ill fated choice, especially when you’ve stuck by it for so long. Some substances definitely get to some people more than others though and you can never tell which ones will be your downfall. I used to think so highly of weed, and for the first 2-3 years of use I still genuinely believe it was stabilising me more than it was harming me. And I used to be terrified of psychedelics; they’re the category I was super wary of for the first few years of my substance abuse. Had a bit of a sketchy acid trip when I was 21 and that certainly informed me that I wasn’t ready for or right for psychedelics at the time.

But I’m mentally stronger and more comfortable with my being than I was then, and I have a much greater understanding of myself. Now it’s psys for the win and wish I didn’t have such readily available access to weed.

@Tryptameanie 585935 wrote:

I’f you look at that poll the results are 46%/53% almost exactly half of the drug users who ever took that poll had no regrets at all and if that’s true then that surprises me very much.

I’d be surprised if that’s a true reflection of people’s feelings towards drug use too. Gotta think, where on the internet are you more likely to find yourself when on drugs; a drug forum perhaps. So how many people gave a false answer just because they were high at time of answering the poll?

@Mr Krabs 586339 wrote:

I regret not getting all the experimentation out of my system when i was younger.

Good answer.