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It’sTori, misery is a part of life. Without it joy would be meaningless.

Heroin just snuffs out feeling. It doesn’t change anything, it doesn’t motivate you to achieve anything.

It’s a dead end. I can understand you feeling that your particular situation is absolutely unbearable without some kind of release.

Fact is, some people are born without eyes. Without legs. Without hands.

Is your life really so horrible? Sure, it FEELS horrible sometimes. Why not tell those bad feelings, those negative emotions to just fuck off out of your life?

Trust, shit will seem shit ATM. but it will get better. Been there done that got the t-shirt. No point ending it now cause you’d be missing out on a lot.

I know it’s really hard to see at the time, but time is a good healer. It’s so easy just to say “fuck it” whilst in the midst of something bad going on. I’ve never had to deal with anything as bad as what it sounds like you have, but I’ve had some pretty shitty things happen over the years. At the time and for a while after it’s fresh in your mind so hurts the most. I know how hard it is for people to see the light a the end of the tunnel whilst in it, but you have to force you self to realize that things will get better for you.

Mby you could talk to you mum about how she copes with it, and go from their? You said she is a strong person, and in many cases strength comes with age as you learn how to deal with problems better and beter. Especially being under 18, and I don’t want sound patronizing, as time goes on, not only will the distance in time between what’s happened and the current time you are living in get further apart (allowing you to separate you self mentally from the events that have happened), but you’ll also gain more ability to just generally deal with bad things.

When you’ve managed to at least get a grip with what’s happened, you’ll become a much stronger person through dealing with it as well. Heroin is a temporary solution to a problem that often makes it a lot worse in the long run.

In life, to build our character we need to fight against resistance, much like how a muscle grows. If there isn’t constantly resistance being applied (in this case the negative energy or whatever surrounding your situation) how can you expect to grow and develop into a stronger version of yourself?

Rather then ending it now, just think about how good it will feel when you’ve KICKED THIS DEPRESSIONS ASS. Don’t give up after losing round one. It’s a long battle but one you’ll win i’m sure, you’ve got lots of people around you to support you.

I’ve had the darkest period of my life thus far this year and it was incredibly shit. At times I would jokingly ask people if they could get heroin but deep down I knew I wasn’t joking. If I wasn’t in that state of mind (which i’m not now thankfully) I would never do heroin as I don’t want to be dealing with more addictions. Rather then thinking “Fuck, this is bad. I need an escape”, You should change your attitude to “Fuck this is bad. I need to make it better”. It is difficult to attain this attitude at first and it takes some dedication but it will make you feel much better. Just break your problems down into small steps and eventually you’ll have travelled a few miles 🙂

If you ever need a chat or anything feel free to PM me, the whole of PV is here to support you and i’m sure many in your life too. Wish you all the best.