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@Grey 571467 wrote:

Hey, I’m Grey and searching for a high to help alleviate my depression. Had it for so long now, prescription drugs are useless, I can no longer rely on alcohol, anything speedy makes me panic…well that’s my story in a nutshell. And I’m quite desperate for relief. :head_bang

Drugs aren’t the answer, you sound like you have a drug problem without an addiction, ie. you really, really, want, but don’t need.
If it’s at the point where you dislike uppers, are disappointed byt uppers, and are wanting to jump into opiates, you’re at best in denial but hopefully not so far gone that opiates are a serious option.

Sadly mate, you are in a position where you sound like you ahve access to many chems, but none ofr them make you happy. You desperately cling to the ideal that a drug will solve your problems and that sin’t going to happen. I’m not taking the piss mate, it took me 30 years to even get to that point.
You may or may not have an addiction to one/some or many drugs but you have issues that are beyond that which need tro be addressed as well.

@Grey 571486 wrote:

The only thing I’m desperate for is this despairing bleakness to stop. I’m whacked out on lorazepam right now, it basically inhibits much of my phsical capacity so I’ll probably roll into bed and sleep. It’s as good an end to my day I could hope for I suppose.

But thanks for chatting to me man. Personally, I do think I need somthing potent – be in a drug or otherwise. If I was religious I’d say it was God. But I’m not so I don’t. But amongst all this despair, I do want to live…just not like this.

I thought the exact sam thing for over 2o years, they could give me a drug but they just won’t because they’re bastards, but that isn’t how it works. I’m not taking the piss out of you bud, as I am known to do, I genuinely think you are in the situation I was in a few tears back.