everybody wants to remembered for something, what’s yours?
That fork road in life is just around the bend, yet you never know which one..do you live your life honourable? If you can say yes with no reservations then count your blessings and understand that there is an infantry of lost souls who only dream of such a life..at birth people have already been dealt their cards which will spawn that monkey…you know the one?!?!
I had a plan, a tick box affair. I stay true to myself but no one else. I ticked the last box…the pain associated with childhood abandonment is beyond fucking real for me… I went toe to toe …ready to inflict what ever it took … But that weak as piss khunt cowered like a wet cornered rat …. WHAT THE FUCK HAD I BEEN SCARED OF FOR SO MANY YEARS!!!!! WEAK FUCKER!!! I was after blood but soon realised you were pathetic, hiding behind your mask. YOU FUCKER FOR PASSING ON YOUE GENES……. Trust me, your visit my grave and I’ll haunt your soul for life. A son is meant to live beyond his father……you just fucking try to get through those gates and I’ll show you crowd participation …
The “S” letter clearly spells our your direct influence in a wounded existence …. Walk ya talk ya FUCK!
I know it was an avoidance technique, mixed with intellectualisation to join such forums, but you guys, here, have an underdeveloped yet honest and open minded environment. To all those that I have been communicating privately, thank you – you showed me compassion yet not afraid to call me on my bullshit. There is one guy, and you know who you mean……you posses a natural ability that you must develop….I call you my bother!
I post on many forums but for some reason I have really enjoyed this one, may have something to do that i was psychotic for most of it … But fuck that’s been my story brothers & sisters!
I’m not a fan of goodbyes, especially online as you usually associate it with attention seeking whores, but hey this is my last goodbye to you folk and out of respect I’d like to say two things:
Be true to yourself, go to war if that what is takes, never let ‘things’ happen that you are internally uncomfortable with
If you love someone, tell them today, don’t take them for granted, treat them like shit and you may just end up in an abandoned house with a bottle of vodka and 150mg of oxycodone
Baruḥ Dayan HaEmet raaa
