this extra bit of info is a
big factor towards what happened
I agree with Mr Lighting here.
On a positive note, though, although it wasn’t a nice experience, it was a BIG experience. I’m pretty sure that in time you’ll forget about the feelings of paranoia, if not the paranoia itself and remember the mental things you saw.
These things probably won’t be seen by you again, as I’d imagine you’d want to keep yourself a bit safer.
I can relate to this a bit. Quite a few years ago, when I was proper into my acid, I misjudged my tolerance and did FAR more than I should. It was probably one of the most horrifying evenings of my life. I’d had little spates of paranoia and nerves before, but this was full on terror, not just that I didn’t know what was going on, but EVERYTHING was moving and changing. I wasn’t recognising faces of people I’d known for years. It was horrible.
Looking back now, though, I am glad it happened – some of the things I saw that night can’t be described or explained, but they were so different to anything that’s happened before or since.
Remembering it now (or kind of, at least), is mad, not like how reminiscing should be! I was proper fucked.
It was almost showing me what the human brain is capable of if it’s left to its own devices. I try to keep my brain on a shorter leash, these days…
peace
