alright guys.. seem to have things sorted out now.. sortof. went to the docs and was truthful with him. told him everything. the same doctor who knows im a k head. he recognised me straight away when i walked in the door.. dunno if that was a good thing or not.
got a couple of weeks supply of zopiclone. helped abit but to be honest they didnt last me near the 2 weeks. but then i got hold of some jellies from elsewhere. moved out of brighton too recently, just outside in sleepy saltdean. havnt got as many distractions out here.. i open up my window and hear peace, not busses and the busy busy streets of brighton. and its helped me control my k habit too.. havnt touched the stuff in a week exactly today. i did go on a 4 day bender last week tho 😥 its good and bad living in saltdean.. its a 20 min bus ride from brighton, with the last bus at 11pm, so i cant always pop out my front door and pick up a gram or 2. where as when i was living in brighton i knew literally tons of dealers all within a 5 min walk of where i lived… but on the other hand when i do go to brighton i find it hard to come back and get stuck in a hole. stayed there most of the week last week and found myself doing massive amounts (trying to make up for lost time!) started nthe binge on wednesday and it lasted through till saturday. got through a litre between 2 of us. found myself getting the cramps friday, not a major k cramp attack but the constant cramped feeling u get after a binge. i decided to go out to erisian drum n bass that night with my boyfriend and altough i was cramped a little he got a really bad cramp attack and got paralised on the beach outside the club. wasnt good. i triple dropped a few pills moments before he got the attack and i had to take him home in a taxi (the first taxi we orderd refused to take us!! didnt make me happy and i proper voiced my opinions, bringing the bouncers over to calm down.. but really, what a cunt!) so yea, i sat at home buzzing my tits off whils my boyf slept. had a few grams of ket to sniff so it wasnt that bad. god i sound like such a fiend. but hey.. at least now its not around me 24/7. and my sleep is better
