@eycm 966697 wrote:
I’m researching for an article and would like to know some of the reasons people start taking drugs. I am approaching this as a drug taker myself and am interested in other people’s stories. I’d also like to know if your parents ever took drugs or who exposed you to drug culture. Thanks 🙂
i started smoking and doing drugs because i’ve been constantly depressed on and off my whole life. my brother was born 3 and half years after me and he was just an easier kid to handle and his personality is a lot more fun than mine. i got jealous but couldn’t explain the feelings to my parents because i have asperger’s. (no i’m not slow or special ed; i’m extremely intelligent when it comes to books but socially i am slow, basically look it up if you want). it started pretty badly about the same time my brother was diagnosed, after having a seizure, with epilepsy. seizure jokes are only funny when you haven’t seen it ya know? it’s terrifying even though he’s had it since the 3rd grade. i’ve seen all kinds of shit happen to him – concussions, cuts, bruises, bones and his jaw out of joint more than a few times, sprained/broken wrist…it’s really sad. i don’t know why but i feel responsible for that.
also my parents never paid me much attention at all but it got worse after he was diagnosed. i realize it’s a serious illness, don’t get me wrong, i’m not being a pouty baby. i just sort of felt and still do feel that i’m fading into the background like no one ever wonders what i’m doing, how my life is or any of that. i feel ignored. it’s a coping mechanism for me – not a bragging right or show off mechanism. these substances i use are for ME to help deal with this pain i feel from being sober. my parents didn’t even know i was smoking pot until i told them. they don’t know that i’m a functioning alcoholic and they don’t know that i abuse my ADHD medicine. -shrug-
And i live with them. you see my point?
if i had wheels, i’d be a wagon.
