Over the last 2-3 years I have noticed that MDMA has had a much different effect on me compared to previous experiences.Before this time It have me all of the normal effects, and was great!
I realise that the euphoric effect can lessen after many doses, however more recently whenever I take it (even a small dose), instead of being loved up and full of energy, I become tripped out, thinking that I’m places where I am not, talking to people in a really confusing way, and walking away from friends totally forgetting that I’m with them.
Most recently, on a dance floor, instead of dancing and enjoying the music, I was stood on there hardly moving, talking absolute gibberish (more than your average late night party banter), and people asking me and my girlfriend if I was okay. I also forget massive portions of the night a lot of the time when I have taken it in this 2-3 year time frame.
This confusing and not fun effect is frustrating because MDMA was one of my favourite drugs. I would love to know why this is happening, if its happened to anyone else, and if there’s anything I can do to be able to enjoyably take it again. I am 26 now and have been taking it since I was 18, my alcohol consumption on nights out has increased over the years which may have contributed to this different effect. I have also done a lot of it in the past, and some very high doses, perhaps because of this my brain now reacts differently to it.
It really doesn’t take much before i’m totally not with it! On new years eve I fell asleep after doing a line of MDMA.
Any help or insight would be really really appreciated! Bear in mind the goal is to be able to enjoyably take it!