Party Vibe

If I could escape somewhere it would be into the perfect androgynous body. And I could decide at the drop of the hat if it was a female or male body. And only I would know which one it was at anyone time.

I want to have the complete freedom to express my body in any way I desire. That is what I really and truly desire above everything else.

In a way when I dance I feel like I become totally disconnected from my body. I surrender to the music. Part of me becomes the music, part of me is just my mentality, my reality, free, disembodied. Pure.

That’s why I find the whole experience so addictive.
I get to escape everything and just become a higher force.

The Sufis, the whirling dervishes, do this. I have to respect their ass – no waiting around patiently to experience the ecstasy of heaven – they want to experience the ecstasy of heaven on earth, and they achieve that through dancing. I can totally relate to that.

So I want to travel to perfect freedom. Freedom from time, freedom from physicality, freedom from concern, just to fucking exist as a pure energy.

Completely alone sat on the rocks on sunset strip, Ibiza watching the sun come down as waves crash against the rocks and smokin’ a j – my spiritual home ever since my first visit when i was 21 and it was the experience that made me see my soul for the first time and crack my cocaine addiction – intend to have ashes put into the see there when I die. When I did it in reality didn’t manage to be alone as bars and shit all there but sat on the front rocks that the waves lap against, combined with listening to ambient pipe music and the weed managed to get mself so far forawrd on the rocky beach that noone else was in my field of vision so in effect was alone with my thoughts and the peace and tranquility of the vision in front of me – that was my perfect moment in my lfe and the place i take myself to in my mind to feel that way again.