Advice Needed For Open Minded (But Worried) Boyfriend Hi guys,
Just looking for a little advice, as my drug knowledge is very limited. As far as my personal experience goes I've tried and will ocassionally smoke weed (but don't really enjoy it), and have once tried cocaine at a friend's house (I was a little drunk but I assume it was a fairly dodgy batch of cocaine as the effects were barely noticable). I have had what I would call a mild dependance on alcohol for a year or two, but have cut down significantly and am still cutting back.
I am not against drugs in principle, and fully support safe drug taking, testing kits at festivals, etc etc. I personally believe the majority of drugs should be legalised - as I feel the criminilisation of illicit drugs only creates more crime, and leads to dangerous products, etc etc (I'm sure I don't need to rattle through these arguments here). Besides, if someone wants to take a drug, they can find a way despite it's illegal status. If someone doesn't want to take a drug, they won't just start just because it's legal.
Which is why I'm here really. Information and education. For me.
Basically the crux of it is that I'm worried about my girlfriend. She's 29 and has been a heavy drug user in the past. I don't fully know to what extent as she hasn't gone into loads of detail, but I know she used to take drugs every week, and from what I've gathered it was a pretty wide range of substances. Definitely cocaine, ecstasy pills, MDMA caps, but I'm assuming that's nowhere near the end of the list. She also mentioned she used to sell pills for a dealer just so that she could get free pills for herself. Not the smartest move fiscally, I wouldn't have thought, but w/e.
We have been dating for about 4 months now, and on one drunken night a couple of months in I mentioned that I was worried she saw me as too boring (because I have little to no drug experience, or real desire to get into it), and she mentioned that she didn't, but that SHE was worried that I'd be judgemental of her for the drugs and things she's done previously. I told her I wasn't going to judge her on things she'd done in the past, and I stand by that. However I was still worried about her current drug use.
After a week or two of putting it off I finally asked her what drugs she still takes, and how often. I already knew she was still on them (particularly at festivals and concerts) and she hadn't really tried to hide it - it just hadn't come up in conversation because I'm not totally comfortable talking about it, and she doesn't talk to me openly about it without being asked (probably still afraid of judgement).
She said she still takes pills and MDMA caps, depending on what she can get, but just does it now on "special ocassions". I wouldn't really have too much of a problem with this, but "special ocassions" seems to pretty much just mean "any concert, any festival, or any event with my best friends". In the time I've known her there's at least 7-8 ocassions that I know of that she's taken some combination of pills/caps (because she's told me that she had/was going to), meaning she still does it 1-2 times per month.
I've done fairly extensive reading, as I'm not one to jump to unreasonable conclusions without knowing what I'm talking about (as I hope you can tell), and the general consensus seems to be that 1-2 times a month is a fair bit more than is healthy/safe (especially factoring in the fact that - I assume - she takes quite heavy doses as she must've built up a tolerance over the years).
I worry that she's already done significant damage to her body/brain from her younger days, and that her consistent use now is exacerbating her problems.
She has been sick for work 3 times since we've been together, and every time it was in the first day or two back at work a few days after she'd taken drugs. She will always spend pretty much the next full day in bed (often the majority of the next two-three days), and I feel is generally more irritable/emotional/flat for a good deal of time after (I do realise this is subjective and there's probably a large deal of confirmation bias at play, but I think it's still worth a mention).
She has been sick a number of times (remember we've only been together 4 months) with upset stomachs, headaches, dizzy spells - she's actually sick at the moment, as it was her best friend's hens night on the weekend (four days ago) so she royally fucked herself up that night.
She also has a tonne of back problems, and can barely walk after a festival (though I realise this isn't uncommon), and is generally in terrible shape. From a fitness/general health perspective that is - I still think she's a stunningly beautiful girl with a great bod (!) - she just treats it like crap.
I guess I'm just looking to tap into the wealth of experience that you guys have on frequency of use, come-downs, negative side effects, etc. Does it sound like the majority of these problems are probably linked to her using too much? What's a safe amount (if there is one) for someone in her situation?
I've told her that I'm not totally comfortable with her doing it but I don't want to tell her what to do with her life. I still feel that way, I want her to make her own decisions but I guess I'd just like her to know that I believe she needs to take a really good look at her drug use and the effect it's having on her life. Today I mentioned I'm worried about her because she doesn't look after herself. I didn't specifically mention the drugs, but she seemed to respond to my concern.
Anyway, give me whatever advice you've got - I kinda think I really wanted to just chuck this out there partly to get it all off my chest and get all my thoughts out of my head and down on some virtual paper, so thanks so much if any of you have taken the time to read through my ramblings, and even more if you take the time to respond.
Cheers guys!
ALD-52 After many years of this being pretty much just an urban legend on the streets this compound recent;y became available.
Fully the compound is called 1-acetyl-Lysergic acid diethylamide and has a wiki entry here:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/ALD-52
This compound is mentioned in TIHKAL under the entry for LSD and only 2nd hand accounts are given which suggests Shulgin neither ever synthesized it and possibly never even tasted
There are plenty of discussions about it online but I see none that I can happily say they definitely have even been within 100 miles of ALD-52 but now it is 100% real and available in both crystal form and laid on blotters at 125ugs each. Reports have confirmed the activity of this and note them as comparable to the parent, LSD. If I wasn't immune to lysergides I'd give it a blast but I'll report back on what others have to say on it when I've heard from them.
U47700 Recently bought 5 grams of this stuff only to discover that it's not like other opioids and I hate it. Gave some to a friend now stuck with 2.5 gram worth :(
LSD + religion (true but amusing story) I wasn't sure whether to put this in the drugs or religion section but this happened around 1999/2000 -around the time we were running the RLA (Readingstoke Liberation Army) and the night time broadcasts of a community radio station playing drum and bass, breakcore, gabba etc which was known as the Voice of Free Readingstoke (VFR) which is where rtnVFRmedia originated from.
Over the years I have got high with at least 4 Scousers who all had the street name "Scouse" and all had a Catholic background; although most of the time we just discussed it jokingly as none of us had been to Mass for ages although they all had some remnants of faith although it was stuff like "if you nick something, you should give 10% of its value to your mum, or any nuns in the area" :laugh_at: and that it was sinful to sell people poor quality / contaminated drugs so you should test them on yourself first..
There was this one "Scouse" around at the time who clearly remained more religious than the others. I cannot remember if he was older or younger than me but he came across as "older"; he was tall but thin, and balding on top - TBH the dude would have made a very good friar and I wouldn't be surprised if he has since joined the Franciscans or Salesians.
It was also around the same time the sisters at ETWN had prayed for me (I'd helped get some faulty equipment in their studios repaired quicker); they also prayed for my Dad who had recently passed away (the sisters even noticed I had been away on compassionate leave) and that I may one day regain the faith.
TBH this was genuinely holy of them considering as Mother Angelica had also been taken very ill at the same time that they would bother to think about praying for a sinner in a far away foreign country...
During this weekend there was some especially strong acid doing the rounds; we'd taken it the day after this Scouse dude had built a car from an abandoned one and some bits in the scrapyard and we'd travelled in it to Luton and back.
A few hours into this trip whilst we were observing all sorts of pretty patterns he suddenly goes into a full on theological discussion about faith and asks me "have we committed Sin this weekend?"
I replied - "well you didn't steal the car, it was abandoned, possibly some minor traffic violations were committed but nothing dangerous as we got there and back safe - and even if we have spent the whole weekend taking hard drugs we're not robbing things, fighting or breaking windows. So any sin would surely be minor...."
Just a few seconds later both of us had visions of Nuns appearing on church pews in front of us. Just like those we would have encountered in junior school and sometimes in our towns.
And we were both compelled by some force to count all the nuns. This wasn't that simple as the sisters and the pews were not staying still but in a slow circular orbit; and there was still all sorts of other distracting patterns.
If we lost count and/or burst out laughing at the absurdity of what was happening the sisters looked disapprovingly at us; but if we concentrated and counted correctly they would start to smile.
They were to be fair also appearing in easy to count groups of 5, 10, 15, 20 (the number of sisters and speed the appeared at increased as we counted more correctly). When we had both counted 1500 of these sisters whoever "Upstairs" was responsible for this must have decided "OK, they've had enough" and all the sisters floated up back to Heaven leaving us with the patterns to look at.
I could even envisage what may have been at the "other end" of all this; a load of the guardian angels, Jesus ,Mohammed and the other Asian gods and the others from the Germanic afterlife all watching the both of us on CCTV monitors (connected to an NTL style cable system) and rolling about laughing..
maybe it was a sign from the guardian angels to look after ourselves; being able to still do accurate arithmetic even when under the influence of substances could prevent you from an unwanted early entry into the afterlife (I think they only keep me alive as they don't want me in there until I've got a bit more maturity :laugh_at:)
How Can I best Break Into the Party Scene? I am moving to Houston, Texas for the low cost of living, good wages and good economy, but I also hear they gotta pretty badass party scene too. Well anyway I won't really know anyone there, so this is a problem. I would prefer to skip the whole "Pursue hobbies, make friends that way then parties will happen." How can I find out about and get into the good parties in Houston Texas and surrounding areas?
advice needed please :) Hiya i need to advice please, i have just bought some speed from trusted person for a party tomorrow night.
Its smells like it normally does but its like a yellow paste. My friend has told me that it will be alot stronger
than the normal stuff we get but i just wanted to see what people thought as it looks totally different to what we normally have.
Will look forward to hearing your advice!!!
Bobby12
Shroom orgasms = The best feeling ever The other night I was on shrooms and I had a fuck buddy over so naturally, we were fucking like crazy. The sex was great and all but everytime I climaxed, it was absolutely amazing, it felt like I was cumming for hours at a time.
Does anybody else feel this way? I want to do it again
Boom Festival 1998 August 1998
Courtesy of Marita.
Hi fluffy fluoro freaks,
It's taken me a while to get around to sitting down and reviewing this years boom, but after getting back from a beautiful holiday in portugal, it took me a good few weeks to reacclimatise. so i'm going to attempt it. finally. =o)
Ehm... well, might as well start at the beginning i suppose. =) timo and i drove down and got there on tuesday evening around 8:30pm. or at least we thought it was 8:30, but discovered the next day sometime that we'd forgotten to change our clocks, and that in fact we were an hour earlier. =) (you can probably tell already that i'm in a rambling mood, so sit back, put yer feet up, and prepare for a long side-tracked story).
We really watched the whole village building up over 4 days or so, that was really nice. there were something like 20 showers this year, 5 blocks of 4 showers, surrounded by a green gause type thing, that offered little or no protection view wise, and although we were there on tuesday, the generator wasn't really going fulltime until wednesday evening or thursday sometime.... which meant you had to keep a close eye on the water and run in there as soon as you saw it come back on. =) and yeah, like chrissie mentioned in her review, i was quite amused that the majority of people took showers with their swimsuits on. *hihi* =o) one thing though, thursday evening in the shower, i stood on a wasp. the little blighter took great pleasure on shoving his arse, containing sting, as far as he could into the sole of my foot. luckily sylvia had some anticeptic cream, and although it pained me most of thursday, by the time friday night dancing time came around, i was in perfect foot health again. =o)
We kept running into ppl around the campsite that we knew from last year - both list, and non-list members. and probably the best moment of all was when we met monbaza and his beautiful wife, sappho. there was this instant inaudible 'click', and we had such fun for the rest of the festival. =) i don't think we stopped laughing once. *massive* hugs to you both monbaza!
Anyway, on with the story. =)
The 604 meet
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This, i must say, was such a laugh. or at least, i was having a right creac!! (irish for having *great* fun. there's just some words you can't express in english sometimes.) i'd already run into quite a few ppl on the camp site like jason creak, mike, vadim, thew & sylvia, matt 'n' rem, ben & dom, monbaza, sam (chaishop), & amit, but the actual gathering was excellent. 'successful' sounds a a bit clinical for this. this was downright wicked!
Timo and i arrived there a wee bit before 5 on friday as planned, with our poor old sheet with the dots in a 604 kinda shape (photo available from our boom piccies from last year) and set it out on the ground in the chill out. first person to home in on it was avi. =o) after that i can't remember who arrived when, but i know that denis, carsten, mistr (i'm sorry, i've forgotten your actual name! =o/ ), vadim, avi, sam, chrissie, andreas, rene, matt, remko, maarten, thew, sylvia, monbaza, matteo, amit, jason, mike, bob (who arrived late, and unfortunately, i didn't get a photo of), timo and lil' old me were there. (and i've just heard that jean smog was also there - he's even in one of our photo's although he's got his back to the camera. jean - wtf didn't you say hello! i had been wondering where you'd gotten to. turns out you were 5 meters away, and i didn't know!) =o)
It was a wonderful get-together! =o) and then.... about every second person started rolling a joint, and about half an hour later, you couldn't pass a joint without someone handing you another! we were pretty smoked out, but it was *such* good fun. i got photo's of (almost) everyone (with the exception of bob it seems, and the skakti's, cuz they never showed up), and they're for the viewing on timo's homepage
(mitsunori - i kept an eagles eye out for you, but couldn't spot you anywhere. are you sure you wore your rasta headband?? ;o) )
(mandala - sorry you didn't make it either. what happened?!?!)
And for anyone else from the list that was at boom, but didn't make it to the meet, it was a great pity. but, maybe next time. ;o)
Anyway. on to the party report.
Friday night
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I'm going to to through the line-ups very quickly, this mail is long enuff already. friday started off with cheve - a portugese dj, who played pretty okay. he did play a kent friedman (mindwarped) track (available on the new boom records compilation - double dipped) that got the first whoops of the festival. the crowd loved it! =) (congrats on that one kent!!) after that came on our own monbaza, who kept the crowd going strong with some classic tracks! jikkai, from portugal, were the first live act, but i'm afraid they were way too weird for us, so we went up to the chaishop to visit sam for a while. adam from ceiba came on after that, and drew us all back onto the dancefloor. (nice set adam!)
Quirk live were up then, but whether it was me or wot, i wasn't crazy about them at all. they just weren't right for that time of the morning (5-6) and i think i ended up sitting down through most of it. antaro was supposed to play, but he couldn't make it at all because of back problems, so this wee kiddy (don't know his name) played from 6-9. you could barely see his head looking from the dj booth. =) but at this time the gram of hawaiian that i did were kicking me hard, and i was having a very confused, albeit enjoyably confused trip. (one of those where i could've gotten very afraid if i hadn't been more experienced in tripping. but i was able to mentally slap myself and say 'cop on woman, you're tripping your face off - of course your head is all over the place')
I should do a bit on decor here i suppose. the decor was *so* beautiful. fluoro dragons and mosquitos and bits hanging from all the trees, and inga's most *fantastic* backdrops. you might be able to get an idea from the boom photo's on timo's page. we tried to capture it as best we could, but sometime's it difficult to capture such images on camera. it really was another world, a complete fairyland. the dj box was in the design of a ufo, i thought it really added to the whole atmosphere of the party, rather than dj's and live performances being up on a high stage almost above the dance floor. this was cool, the dj's were able to interact more with the dancers.
The photon projections were, as last year, amazing. they had a *huge* screen down the left hand side of the dj ufo (as you're looking at the ufo). the screen must've been 15 or so meters long by about 6 high. it didn't so much 'dominate' the dance floor, but lets say that everyone was *very* aware that it was there, and i for one, along with many others i'd say, used it as a landmark.
And this was what completely threw me that friday night as the hawaiian's thundered through my subconscious and played mad tricks on my mind and eyes - as soon as it got too bright for the projections anymore, they pushed the screen all up together, like you would a curtain. so one minute it's there, and i know where i am, and the next time i look up, i can't find it anywhere. so i'm spinning circles in the middle of the dancefloor not knowing not only who i was or what nationality i was or language i was speaking, but also not knowing *where* the fuck i *was*!! i kept searching for the landmark, but it couldn't be found. at this point i sat down, because i knew i was lost. =) but i didn't have to worry, i was surrounded by friends, whether i'd ever met them before or not. smiling faces everywhere. nothing to worry about.
We retired back to the tent around 7:30 or 8 though, with me simply following timo as i still hadn't worked out where i was, so i missed quite a bit of this wee kids set, and missed adrian completely.
Saturday night
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Saturday night started off with david from sweden, followed by chika from japan, but i didn't find either of them very interesting. they kind of plodded along, didn't play very energetic tracks at all. but then! pleiadians came on, and that was really amazing! i found i.f.o. to be too much of the same thing, but now i realise that it just probably has to be played on a fuckin' loud system!! these guys were really excellent!
But after that came what was for me probably the best set of the whole festival, domino. man, did she *play*!!! this is only my second time hearing her play, but she's up on the top of my favouristististist dj's list after that performance! =oD
After domino came koxbox, and wow, what a performance. they mixed their set so that one track just melted into the next one, but played a huge mixture of their stuff, old and new. they were really something. next up was frank-e himself, and he also played a wonderful set. i stayed as long as i could, but retired back to the tent again around 8:30 or 9, so we missed migas's (portugal) set.
I think i probably enjoyed saturday 'night' best of the 3. there was a very good atmosphere there that night, better than friday i thought. but then, that could also be attributed to my 'mental' state again.
Saturday night was 2cb night, and i must say, i'd swap mushrooms and acid anyday for the experience i have on 2cb. all the visuals, none of the confused headfuck. so yeah, i was running around being an absolute ass, laughing my head off - especially to people's reactions to walter the eyes, wishy the troll, & bob 'you've been bobbed' (cheers jason c =oD ).
Thew & sylvia (neuronautic institute) finally had a decent setup and a screen to themselves. on friday, they'd been sharing the huge screen with photon, and it was very difficult to see the projections especially as the big screen reflected the blacklight. but this time they were much better set up. unfortunately, the equipment they had was minimal.... even one of the buttons fell off the mixer.. (maybe chewing gum'd work thew? ;o)))) but in spite of that, thew and sylvia jammed all night with their video footage mixing at a mad rate, and produced some great stuff! we really had fun with them around their little cage that sylvia had decorated with all the fluoro bits and pieces. =o)
see thew in action here
Sunday night
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Sunday night opened up with gunther. we caught the end of his set, but he had to play to a poor dancefloor in comparison to friday and saturday. well, it's to be expected i guess, as a lot of local people might not come along on sunday night what with work, school whatever the next day. after gunther, our man matt was up. i really enjoyed his set as usual!... but then, i know a lot of the tracks he plays really well, so i'm a bit biassed. =) but he did pull the crowd in and the floor quickly filled up.
And then... the moment i'd been waiting for, psychopod live! and i wasn't disappinted! he played an amazing set! ...and highlite of it all - friagram! horray! ===o=o=o)=o)o)o))) i was hopping about all over the place! /me was in her element!!! =o)
Ollie wisdom was up to dj after psychopod, and was *wonderful*!! what a set the man played. i *really* enjoyed when he stuck on cosmosis - spores from space. the crowd reacted fantastically! (big thumbs up again mark_h!!) talk about pumping energy into a party, he never let up once! later on he also played 'down at the crossroads', and he really knew how to read the crowd. from what i could see though, space tribe never did play live. i think ollie just continued on. but he was enjoying it! he had the biggest grin on his face throughout the whole thing. =o) and i'd love to know what the last track he played was. it had some irish traditional stuff - the chieftains actually, and everyone on the dance floor loved it. =)
The half acid tab we'd taken earlier wasn't kicking in at all, so a while later we took the other half. an hour later, and i wasn't even feeling rubbery, so we said, fuck it, and did another whole tab each. -ahem- well. right. awaaaaaaayyyyyyy weeeeeee goooooo then!! ....eeeeeeeeerk..... 8o)
Max from etnica was next up, and okay, i was tripping, but fuck the man performs on stage! not only was his set totally awesome, but he sang and physically demonstrated every tweak bleep ping and twang that came out of the speakers! what a performance! scary looking dude though, well, i thought anyway. but very entertaining...especially when he's doing his chicken dance.... =o/ =o))
Anyway, he rocked the place until 9 that morning, and then avichay avigal from israel took over the decks. he played very well, but to me, he was nothing in comparison to max or ollie. we took it a bit easy at that time, danced a bit, sat a bit, found everyone we'd lost during the night and caught up on what each other'd been up to. =) ...watching that guy with the sticks dance around - he was amazing... and kept a bit out of the sun. =o)
And at 12, gunther took over again. =o) granted, i didn't think much of his mixing at this point, but he did play very light hearted bouncy music, and he kept the dancefloor full until 5 that evening.... although from about 4ish on, i could be found sitting in the shade stuffing my face with icecream. =o) i forced myself to dance for the last few tracks okay, but to be honest, i was shattered. =o) ...and i'd did my ankle in at some point during the night, but of course didn't notice it 'too' much until i started to come down a bit off the acid.... *man* did it hurt!
Atmosphere on the dancefloor all sunday morning was great - everyone was giving it their all for the final night/morning, lots of smiling faces all over the gaff. and all of us completely smeared and covered with dust. =o)) oh what fun it all was. =) the sprinklers were well appreciated this year as well. =)
But yeah, i think i've finally written enuff on my boom98 experience.
Big thumbs up to diogo, pedro, alf, and all the others that pulled their weight to keep the whole thing ticking over, least of all the dj's and performers of course.
Oh! one other thing, it seems the kindergarten was a massive success! and it was very obvious on sunday morning - kids with multicoloured hair walking around the dance floor handing out boiled sweets and lollypops to dancers! it brought a smile to every single person's face, and the sweets did the tastebuds of a very dusty mouth the world of good as well. =o)
Right, enough already! =o))
Sorry for going on so long, but when i get started, there's no stopping me sometimes.
Last but not least, warm smiles to all the listers that we met there, you made the whole experience extra special!
big smiles,
=o)
marita.
why does life hurt so much :( All other people are out enjoying summer, going every day on pool or sea and i am all the summer again in my room, like every year. I cant go nowhere, because i have no friends. I am not equal to others, because i didnt have all those things in past (vacations with friends, swimming in pool or sea, trips, sex, friends) that for others are normal. How can i live with this? It hurts too much... And now i cant be on the level of others anymore... people dont realize how happy they can be for all those things they had in youth. I had nothing.
Can you buy any kind of drugs online I'm really looking for subutex it's the only thing that makes me not want to do her ion and I don't have health insurance so it's Lmost impossible for me to get it down here in Florida
Cheap radio monitoring equipment part 1 This lot would have set you back about €10 000 just a few years ago!
Below are two links for where to get it from Amazon + some useful advice from the radioamateurs in Essex (I may even get my license from one of their clubs as our local one only does it once every year in October and I missed last years weekend, ironically because I was working long hours getting some WLAN equipment to work correctly!)
I actually have a Ofcom suppliers license for UHF/VHF communications radios but that doesn't allow me to transmit on amateur frequencies; although everyone is permitted to monitor them. It is also now legal to monitor aircraft and maritime comms (as we are in the EU/CEPT).
As the radioamateurs are usually middle class folk who stay on the right side of the law the essexham links don't explain some of the other stuff like decoding pagers (although its legal for me to decode my own messages) and/or your neighbours remote controls/alarms; as well as model aircraft and drones and other such things but once you've installed the software its easy to work out where these signals are and get software to process them. I have included a link from the main RTL SDR site which some other decoder apps ;)
Realtek Software Defined Radio for £10
More on how to configure the software - you will need a fairly powerful computer, Win7/10 are best unless you are a Linux boffin. In some cases you will need the free virtual audio cable so you can "pipe" the output of the radio receiver into software that expects a soundcard input.
Realtek RTL SDR Dongle Explored by Essex Ham
The BIG List of RTL-SDR Supported Software - rtl-sdr.com
VB-Audio Virtual Apps=[
I suggest also buying the MCX to PAL TV antenna adapter as the small antenna supplied with the device isn't much good. You can build your own antenna using a TV antenna plug, coax cable and bits of wire; its size will depend on what frequencies you plan to monitor.
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