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If you pause at the end of each sentence, that reads like a goth kid’s morbid poetry!

Seriously though man, have a word with yaself – or alternatively take some MADMAN, that’ll definitely make you feel happier, plus you can eat shitloads of food before taking it & not have to worry, cos you’ll burn it all off even doing something as mundane as just sitting still on mandy!

Be patient and look for a way out to happiness. Kids get happiness “handed” to them. Adults seek out and shape their own.

Either you’ll find a way out to happiness or die trying. 🙂

It’s a self fulfilling prophecy, you need to take action. If you think you are depressed and will never see happiness, you will always be depressed and never see happiness.

Izzy, you could have been a bit more SPECIFIC… Nevermind.

List of numbers (toll free) by which of the United States you are in;-

https://www.childwelfare.gov/pubs/reslist/rl_dsp.cfm?rs_id=5&rate_chno=11-11172

Not all states have a toll free helpline but the ones that don’t are covered by a more broad organization, details on the link.

Hope this helps itsTori. What actually counts as “abuse” varies a bit from state to state, IF I understand these things correctly…

@itsTori 555362 wrote:

Sorry to bother you but I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m sorry for anyone thinking I’m just some kid wasting your time but please trust that’s not my intention.

I don’t what to do anymore. I feel like there is no point for me to live…that I should leave…for everyone’s benefit. I’m not happy and I don’t think its possible I ever will be, I never had a “real” happiness, I was just oblivious to the bullshit and everything going on. I’ve totally hit rock bottom in this hell and I can’t get out. My thoughts scream “Cut down as deep as you can over and over until there’s nothing left.” “Never eat you fucking pig, you deserve to starve, you deserve to purge.” This shit is taking me hostage and I can’t get out and I don’t know what to do anymore. I want so bad to finally have peace and be happy but I need that now before I’m totally destroyed, emotionally and physically. I don’t have a fear of dying its just the part that’s unknown about it that scares me but the fact that I won’t ever be able to be hurt again and I can leave all of my past behind me is something to make me want it more.I just don’t want to get that far and have it all be a mistake. I just don’t know…

Thanks for reading and I’m sorry if I wasted your time with any of this.

Hey tori, If I can give you one piece of advice, it’s time changes everything. You may feel like you’re backed into a corner with no way out now, but life is a constantly evolving thing, the trick is to be as strong as you can be and ride out the bad times, because the good times WILL come. once you overcome what is troubling you now, and like I say, nothing stays the same for ever, so there will be a time when you are out the other side of how you’re feeling now, it will make you stronger and you’ll be more resilient if you ever get into a situation where you’re feeling bad.

I know it’s really hard to see past the hear and now, but there’s always a light of some kind at the end of the tunnel. I’m not saying everything will always pan out perfectly, but there will be a time when things aren’t as bad as they are/seam at the moment. When you do get through this, you will be able to take on anything that comes your way, It’s just a matter of staying as strong as you can and trying to find a way out of the situation, as there’s always a solution to any problem, it’s just finding it that’s the hard part.

I’m not exactly sure what you are having to deal with/go through at the moment, so I can’t give you specific advise (and I may not be equipped to give advise other then personal opinion), but I hope you can get something from what I’ve typed here, and if you need to talk about anything feel free to pm me and I’ll try my best to give you at least a listening ear, and hopefully be able to give you some advice that may help you dig your self out of the hole you sound like you’re in.

EDIT: Following on from what other people have said, there are organizations set up specifically to help people in your situation, there’s nothing to be scared or ashamed of by contacting them, and they will be more equipped to help you out as they will have experience in helping people in similar situations. I think once you contact someone who deals with this kind of stuff as a job, you’re feel a lot of weight lifted off your shoulders as they will be able to walk you through what you can do to get your self out of that situation step by step, and they will be very compassionate and non judgmental.

You’ve go so much ahead of you, and it’s not fair that you’re being denied happiness in your current situation. Please contact the people that have been suggested already and they WILL find a way out for you so you can rebuild your self and become whole and strong again, it;s what they do for people and they are good at it, no matter how much despair you are feeling there’s always someone there who will willingly help you, you really must let them know what’s going on as it will take such a weight off you mind. You can’t change what’s happened, but you can make your life continuously and progressively better. There’s no shame in asking for some help along the way, especially if you’re backed into a corner with out any obvious exits. Sometimes it takes a third party to help you clear your head and help work out the next plan of action for you to start rebuilding.

It would enrich my life greatly to hear that you had got yourself out of that situation. Please, please seek some help. There are plenty of organisations out there that can and will help you and you are not doing anyone any favours by doing anything rash. You clearly (and very understandably) have self esteem issues. You are NOT a pig by any means.

Try to focus on the future that YOU would like to have. Where would you like to be and with whom? Who’s life could YOU enrich by being around them? Who could You make happy?