New guy and dissociative addiction, DOC od, and aftermath Q’s Hello I am a recovering poly-drug addict with bipolar 2. I have tried every street drugs pretty much and a good bit of rc's. My favorite drugs are dissociatives, pcp or 3-meo-pcp pcp but have tried mxe,dxm, and k. I feel like I have the personality that gets completely hooked on them. I also really liked a-pvp and coke/crack(couple iv binges).After a 5 day binge on 3 meo and e liquid ab-chiminica(crazy itaste vtr setup) that were both dirt cheap. I woke up in the hospital after being in a comatose state I stayed there for what I think was a day. Told my parents I didn't have anymore and as soon as I got I went right back to it. Ended going back to the hospital the next day which happened to be July 4th. Felt like an asshole and when I got home late that night I finally caved in on the 3-meo, even through all the crazy indescribable thoughts and it being my love, I knew I loved my family more even though I didn't feel emotions and they have just started to come back. Since then I went handed over my PO box key. I have dabbled with dxm occasionally but have been clean of all dissociatives and psychedelics for 2 months which are my ultimate highs of perfection.
Craziest trip and worst method of suicide known: before pcp
When I went to rehab the 1st time after a DOC binge that was so irresponsible. I researched but i was expecting more strength but I was fiending for a trip and blamed my meds for diminished effects. Was expecting an escape like high cus of the mxe I had but it was the last I had and no more on the way for 4 days, k isn't available to me yet and thought pcp was for junkies and I'm just a coniseur looking for enlightenmental. I ended up becoming psychotic and suicidal probably after 100 mg up too then while feeding chickens at my neighbors who were out of town. Walked through the trail in the woods back to my house and it was like the highway to hell everything is completely insane but I wanted to die. Got back my mom said she my eyes were completely insane like saucers she lit up on fire and I ran to the bathroom grabbing a huge grandfather mirror and was gonna snort the rest off that and end it. Too awkward so I thro it in the bathtub. Got very angry and I broke the toilet paper holder thinking I would look cool if I were to die that way. Well I emptied the remainder of the 250mg approximately 150mg left (no scale) and snorted it. Instant comeup like I shot it in my vein, within a minute my mom knocks on the door and I can barely see my hand in front of my face the rush was completely euphoric but insane. I thought I was a baby walking around cus I couldn't open the door. I ended up saying something I regret and will never forgive myself for. My mom asked what the noise was and I said with an evil type voice "hey mom, I'm dead". Ended up unlocking the door and told her to call 911 it was like a gift from the universe or God whatever but then I went to a very strange place that was in between a coma and what I imagine a thumbprint of acid would be like. Unbelievable but I woke in the hospital ripping iv'a out 2 days later and spilling my insecurities to my brothers and mom. Went to a rehab called pathways in Annapolis from there. Had visual distortions for what I think was 3 months. Be zoos and alcohol helped distract me from them and calm the sweating and shaking. I was 17 when this happened.
That was the peak of my use but it had been progressing for 3-4 years since my first tHello I am a recovering poly-drug addict with bipolar 2. I have tried every street drugs pretty much and a good bit of rc's. My favorite drugs are dissociatives, pcp or 3-meo-pcp pcp but have tried mxe,dxm, and k. I feel like I have the personality that gets completely hooked on them. I also really liked a-pvp and coke/crack(couple iv binges).After a 5 day binge on 3 meo and e liquid ab-chiminica(crazy itaste vtr setup) that were both dirt cheap. I woke up in the hospital after being in a comatose state I stayed there for what I think was a day. Told my parents I didn't have anymore and as soon as I got I went right back to it. Ended going back to the hospital the next day which happened to be July 4th. Felt like an asshole and when I got home late that night I finally caved in on the 3-meo, even through all the crazy indescribable thoughts and it being my love, I knew I loved my family more even though I didn't feel emotions and they have just started to come back. Since then I went handed over my PO box key. I have dabbled with dxm occasionally but have been clean of all dissociatives and psychedelics for 2 months which are my ultimate highs of perfection. When I went to rehab the 1st time after a DOC binge that was so irresponsible. I researched but i was expecting more strength but I was fiending for a trip and blamed my meds for diminished effects. Was expecting an escape like high cus of the mxe I had but it was the last I had and no more on the way for 4 days, k isn't available to me yet and thought pcp was for junkies and I'm just a coniseur looking for enlightenmental. I ended up becoming psychotic and suicidal probably after 100 mg up too then while feeding chickens at my neighbors who were out of town. Walked through the trail in the woods back to my house and it was like the highway to hell everything is completely insane but I wanted to die. Got back my mom said she my eyes were completely insane like saucers she lit up on fire and I ran to the bathroom grabbing a huge grandfather mirror and was gonna snort the rest off that and end it. Too awkward so I thro it in the bathtub. Got very angry and I broke the toilet paper holder thinking I would look cool if I were to die that way. Well I emptied the remainder of the 250mg approximately 150mg left (no scale) and snorted it. Instant comeup like I shot it in my vein, within a minute my mom knocks on the door and I can barely see my hand in front of my face the rush was completely euphoric but insane. I thought I was a baby walking around cus I couldn't open the door. I ended up saying something I regret and will never forgive myself for. My mom asked what the noise was and I said with an evil type voice "hey mom, I'm dead". Ended up unlocking the door and told her to call 911 it was like a gift from the universe or God whatever but then I went to a very strange place that was in between a coma and what I imagine a thumbprint of acid would be like. Unbelievable but I woke in the hospital ripping iv'a out 2 days later and spilling my insecurities to my brothers and mom. Went to a rehab called pathways in Annapolis from there. Had visual distortions for what I think was 3 months. Be zoos and alcohol helped distract me from them and calm the sweating and shaking. I was 17 when this happened.
That second paragraph was suppose to be first as I was only 17 and the pcp use started around 18 sorry!
Sorry for long post I really need help! my addiction and experiences. Also is this a bad idea?
That was the peak of my use but it had been progressing for 3-4 years since my first time tripping on k2 which imo was my gateway drug. For most of these years I have been on psych meds. On the top of my head here's a list: Prozac, lexapro, Wellbutrin, seroquel, bus par, viibryd, klonopin, vyvanse, andhydroxyzine. Currently weaning off viibryd and upping Paxil (helps!), also I take lamictal, propranolol(miracle for anxiety!), ativan, and ambien.ime tripping on k2 which imo was my gateway drug. For most of these years I have been psych meds. On the top of my head here's a list: Prozac, lexapro, Wellbutrin, seroquel, bus par, viibryd, klonopin, vyvanse, andhydroxyzine. Currently weaning off viibryd and upping Paxil (helps!), also I take lamictal, propranolol(miracle for anxiety!), ativan, and ambien.
Since I have ceased hallucinogen use for mental health reasons I have only used once since my last time around early August. I was at nightmare fest an outdoor rave that lasted two days and I bought an eighth of shrooms, 2 hits of lsd on sugar cubes, and a g of ketamine. I eventually replaced the synthetic noida with wax but it was hell but I knew I it was gonna fry me and it was a hallucinogen even with tolerance sky high. After that I basically used whatever besides the previous. Started with opiates mostly roxi 30s and the knew generic non gel opanas 15s and 40s. Tried fentanyl like 5 times and tolerance is crazy spending my whole check to be high for Friday and Saturday lol. Found raw dope and that made it manageable. Dealer gets locked up for synthetics and goes to jail but know a guy with coke and am using that when I have the money and get good deals. Anyway at this point trying to keep life in control with concerta, excess alcohol and benzodiazepines, bad idea? This post was mainly to introduce myself share about people's personalities and dissociative addiction. Also an idea of the max dose of doc that is survivable ( THIS WAS ALSO WITH MANY SEDATIVES IDK WHICH AND MY MEDICATION WHICH DIMINISHED EFFECTS) if anyone can relate with my experience or bipolar and addiction in general I would love to hear it! Thanks finally my brain can connect the years somewhat.
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he said he wanted me to do it again. We found a
new guy and I've ha sex with him half a dozen
times and it is what we talk about during sex.
Now he says he wants a divorce bc I cheated
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London Clubbing Hi All.
I'm going to London for my Birthday on Saturday.
I like Avicii, Hardwell and more commercial fist pumpy sort of house.
What nightclub in London is best for Electro / progressive house?
I've looked at Pasha, Fabric and Ministry. But it all seems pretty low key slower tempo DJ's rather than blow the roof off type of stuff!
Any help would be really appreciated!
Alex
Is this laudnum Hey I found this around the house no label or anything. Looks pretty old to. It's plastic and has an in graving that says 3viii. There was powder at the bottom till I shook it up, smells like a little a little alcohol too. Has a child safety cap so can't be that old. Here is a picture
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Why units are important when measuring anything… I made this error when writing down some notes for an electronics experiment; and thankfully as the error was on paper no harm occured; but its equally important for harm reduction with substances.
Earlier in the day I had been working with some LEDs. You need to put a resistor in the circuit for most power supplies; or too much electric current flows and the LED burns out.
LEDs do not use a great deal of current - 20 mA or 20 / 1000 (0.02 A). A glow lamp with the same light uses 200 mA (0.20 A).
It is easy to get confused by decimal points so LED current is usually written in miliamperes (1/1000A) in the same way a entire gram of most drugs would make you ill or put you in hospital so they are dispensed in miligrams (1/1000 g)
To work out the value of the resistor (or how much current flows in a circuit) you use Ohms law where V (voltage in VOLTS) = I (current in AMPS) x R (resistance in OHMS).
As you also have to take into account the voltage drop across the LED(s) and the main power supply voltage and may use more than one LED a more complex set of equations is used ( and most folk use the online calculators). The maths is still based on the same principles.
Later that evening; I was trying to work out calculations for some other equipment using 1.5 A of current and Ohms law. But I had got confused by the online calculators; and used 1500 in my calculations (still thinking in MA). So I had a circuit drawing 1 500 AMPS(!).
I thought "strange, the protective resistor would be that small it would be one tiny piece of copper wire!" then realised what I had done..
what would happen if I tried to draw 1500A from the mains?
As well as the incomer circuit breakers All 3 breakers in this would most likely trip ; 150 or more houses would go off supply and I expect I would be hearing a Police helicopter in the distance and seeing its searchlight and the streets would be swarming with old bill and UK Power Networks vans. It is very difficult to make mistakes like that without being traced and arrested and you can be charged with criminal negilgence and sued for the distress and financial losses to others in the street.
Making mistakes of powers of 10 with units for measuring substances can have similarly unpleasant consequences.
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UK : East : IP1 zine workspace more job adverts here
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(from the former IP1 yoof magazine website - don't be put off by the links to a project that presumably lost the bulk of its funding 2 years ago though was very active in the mid 2000s; this bit of the site is still regularly updated and I've got a good idea who might be involved or at least know who those are) Some EDM-related stuff here - seems that some folk are relaunching Fire and Ice; as the paper bag nightclub good luck to them (they might need it!))
I may well speak to them about the odd way the links are laid out as it makes it look like the whole site is part of a "dead" project when some of it is very much alive... (and having relatively recent pages/magazine back issues is really confusing; I've nearly put up a post about something happening in stow that happened 2 years ago :crazy:
UK : East : Suffolk Creative Employment partnership These are legit paid jobs in the creative industries! Although you have to be unemployed and resident in Suffolk UK to apply for them and they are for a relatively limited age range and its not clear if there is anything after the apprenticeship/intern period they might be of some use to somebody (if such things had been around when I was younger I might well have been interested).
Creative Employment Programme - Suffolk Artlink
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DE : Nazis tricked into goosestepping for bananas and anti-fascism It is untrue the Germans have no sense of humour (it takes some effort and balls of steel to do stuff like this). A friend of mine (sadly no longer with us) would have been particularly impressed as his family grew up in this region and were completely split apart by the war...
German town tricks neo-Nazis into raising thousands for charity | World news | The Guardian
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