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Rehab at home? Hey there everyone, I've got a serious alcohol problem and have had for sometime(nearly 15 years now), I drink all day, everyday and my liver is seriously damaged. I really want/need to stop but I really don't want to do it in a rehab center, any advice? I've been told it can be dangerous to stop without medical attention. Wish me luck and party on!12
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Nearly one week into my detox and rehab Tomorrow I will be one week into my drug detox/rehab.
I have moved to the Norfolk coast to help run a Zorbing park and I have no contacts here for any kind of drugs (which is a GOOD thing).
Since I have left Bucks area I have had very little cravings (maybe the odd little pang here and there). My nose and sinuses are starting to heal so I can finally sleep through the night without having to wake up numerous times for drinks of water from where I've been breathing through my mouth. I have no piss pains and seem to be recovering bladder capacity.
Most of all I feel clear headed (partly no drugs and partly sea air I think).
This seems to be much more of a doddle than I thought it would be.123
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I Can’t Stop Drinking! Is it bad to drink every night? not always to get drunk but jus to relax? Am I an alchoholic because I drink at the end of every day?
I wish this stuff would be banned. seriously. I hate the fact I drink every day..1234
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My name is Chrispydelic and I am an alcoholic. OK. I finally need help. My alcoholism has got totally out of control. I have had full-on DT's and often wake up in the middle of the night wit mild DT's.
I think I should see a Dr, but what do I say? I am actually kinda frightened as some of my symptoms point to things which could be rather severe! :(
Help!12…89
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Coming Off Heroin: E-Babe’s Rehab Diary Hi,
I am a 29 year old male in the Thames Valley area. I am an Opiate addict currently on Methodone. I was never abused as a child and I have a loving familly. We would be the statistical example (2.4 children, 2 cars nearing 3 etc). I am gay, but don't let that determin why I turned to heroin in the first place.
I got into drugs by peer pressure. I always hanged arround with older kids than me when I was younger, they were more interesting and sensible than people of my age. I started smoking pot at 13, speed at 14. My school was shite, because I was gay I was a prime target for verbal abuse - but I never let it get to me. LSD and then Extasy was the next drug of choice. For a solid 3 years every weekend I ate pills and speed and then got onto selling them to make even more friends. The trick worked. Towards the end of my party lifestyle (aged 19ish) I became parranoid. For sometime after stopping all chemicals and pot I was still parranoid - There was no end. My partner at the time asked to borrow my car to score - I pressured him to tell me what he was getting - Heroin. I passed him £15 and I drove him to go and get it. That was my first time smoking heroin and I loved it. My parranoia stopped sudenly and I felt good about myself. OK, I was sick everwhere but that was a small price to pay when you are finally happy.
Every weekend I did smack. Then I would do some on the Monday and then on Wednesday until I started to have stomach cramps, constipation, tears streaming from my eyes (detox symptom). it took over my life. I stole from my familly, did crime to fund my habit and sold drugs to fund my addiction.
Now, I have a criminal record and not much to show for a 29 year old man.
I aim to enusre that people out there are aware of what troubles Heroin addiction or indeed any opiate could do. I don't want this to appear like a public confession either rather just my experience and if someone like a concerned parent, friend of someone who is an addict or if the person reading this themselves are addicts then I hope you will take something positive from my experience and apply it to your lives.
Here is my diary for the time I was in hospital:12…1011
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Alleviating a Smack Detox? I'm 56 hrs into a rattle and really starting 2 struggle. dont want 2 take any opiates but if anyone has any tried and tested home remedies then id be most grateful12
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p0ly’s Sober Diary This is my diary of all the times I take a powerful substance in the path to try and stop myself falling back into a spiral of self destruction. Should be interesting, haven't consumed anything for about 10 days so feeling pretty clean.
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July is festival season and some special occasions can be allowed ;) :bounce_fl12…1213
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An Update on My Heroin DETOX Well I just though I would let you all know how im doing. My history quickly.... Started taking drugs at 13, ended up injecting speed and smoking heroin at 16, injecting heroin, 17, was homeless in London for a couple of years, ended up injecting heroin and crack, got on methadone about 6 years ago blah blah.. been clean from heroin and crack for over two years now, I spent two years reducing my methadone from 120mls daily to 10mls (probably the longest, hardest, drawn out detox) and switched to subutex (buprenorphine) 3 months ago at 8mg, Ive now got myself down to .8mg and I only have a week and a half left before im totally clean from opiates for the first time since 16! (im now 26) Bloody hell what a journey, no feckin way am i goin back there again..
So yeah, im ill most of the time, in slight withdrawls but its manageable, Im just worried about when I stop completely if im gonna get really sick suddenly, from what ive researched its ok. The whole point of doing it this way is to get your life back together enough and do it slowly enough that you can cope. Its the mental side of its thats difficult, physical withdrawls are shite but there manageable if your strong. Emotionally ive so fuckked up my natrual endorphine system Im like a dog on heat one minute and morbid the next. I was looking it up and its well documented that opiate abuse and withdrawl causes low dopamine, dopamine,seratonine and noradadrenaline ar partly produced in the opiate receptors (mu, kappa and Orl1) so when u take the opiates away your body can take years to recover and produce these on its own. So anyway I take a specific dopamine anti-depressant now (the usual SSRI's did nothing) and it definately helps. :love:
All in all, life is good, im studying hard, doing my counselling diploma (gonna be a drugs counsellor) I always used to set myself targets, my 27th I wanna be clean by and i will be. Ill always be an addict, I still look in the cupboard to see what i can take, ive taken ibuprofen just to take something?? But its ok.
So my warning, Anyone who is starting out, smokin gear to come down from a weekend like I did don't! Its taken most of my adult life and the hardest struggle im sure ill ever face to get off it, the stigma of it, my health has gone down the pan, I have fukked veins (i have to take my own blood in hospital still!) Ive been diagnosed with crohns disease, I have coeliac disease and various food allergies (which i never had before and is shit cos i want a cake) along with the usual asthma (from smokin crack) post nasal drip (excess mucous running down my throat, from snorting coke and k) and arthritis!!
Pleas be careful people, I hope this goes some way to inform of the pitfalls!
Peace, Gary :love::love::love::love::love::love:12
Quitting smoking Someone said something to me the other day that really rang true
He said, if one day I found out I'd got brain damage or shortened my life through taking drugs, partying with friends, bending reality, exploring myself, raving, and all the rest, I'd think 'TOTALLY WORTH IT'
But if I one day found out I'd got lung cancer through smoking.... well that would be totally not worth it.
Smokings not that good, it's the least good drug or habit I have, it's barely anything at all, and its the MOST dangerous. Totally not worth it.
3 weeks smoke free now123
Getting off Methadone and STAYING clean Im 24 year old now but my intro to the drug life began at 16 with G. I smoked it for 2 years straight running around, smoking, hustling, scamming, smoking, cleaning my apartment, smoking more and seeing shadow people just about everyday since I maybe slept 3 days total in a months time. I got clean at 18 (by clean I mean smoking bud and Thizzin here and there) A year later I shot up heroin and never looked back (had smoked it 1 time at 17 and it was so disgusting) .
Naturally the homie was against gettin7g me hooked on the needle, but I refused to smoke it and demanded that if he didn't shoot me up I was just gonna do it my damn self and possibly die since I had no idea what to do and just guilt tripped him so bad that I gave him no choice.
Now 5 years, thousands and thousands and thousands of dollars, and a lengthy prison stay (in comparison to my young life) later I am on Methadone and have been for 4 months now.
Heroin has her cold hard grip on a part of my soul and I want it back. But let me tell you, this bitch is ruthless- as anyone that shares my love for the sweet sweet numbness and total lack of emotions that she provides is very familiar with. It's not being dope sick that I cant take, I can do that cold turkey, dying on the couch at home, time and time again because it will always be better than doing it on the concrete floor of a 10x10 freezing, smelly, dirty cell with 45 women packed in, watching you, asking what's wrong with you non-stop, their idiotic comments / questions such as "why would you wanna do that if it makes you sick like that?" and your bitchy reply of "so when I am around stupid bitches like you, I am relaxed enough that I don't wanna slit my fucking throat!"
Anyways fighting a dumb fat bitch while dopesick in a tiny cell doesn't scare me but once was enough and I choose to withstand the misery in my own home where I am free to smoke like a chimney and vomit without comment. The problem is: I only feel normal when I am doing some kind of drug. Normal is not "Normal" for this girl. Its as if something is always missing.
For now the mathadone really helps by giving me the feeling that I am still doing something, I also do G here and there...its kinda like a "lesser of two evils thing" for me because as long as I don't dance with that black, enveloping and seductive whore I keep my little life functioning and with continued improvement.
ALAS, THE ADVICE I SEEK IS: how will I ever get off of methadone and not go back to heroin? Its always the insomnia and waking up drenched in sweat weeks after detoxing that breaks me, the horror of knowing I will never pull back that plunger and see it register, making my heart race a little in anticipation of the rush Im about to feel (btw I speedball w/coke).
I feel as though this will never end and in order to keep my little life Im rebuilding I will have to stay on methadone forever because relapsing is "my thing" I swear!
I have had good chunks of clean time, after prison I honestly believed in my heart that I was done so my faith in my own recovery is virtually nonexistent. If methadone worked for you I would love hear your story and any words of wisdom you have for me. Sorry so long but I feel as though background and an idea of just how much I adore the feeling heroin brings me and how I despise who it makes me was neccessary.
Thanks!
Jax
Alcoholics I'm an alcoholic, who realised this about 4 years ago or more, i did rehab and have got better, its not booze i crave much now, although if i drink i binge till ill, but its very rare, i am now addicted to opioid drugs, mainly Codeine prescribed for a compression to the spine, 4 i think, just a quick message as i'm new to say to anyone hang on in, rewards are good for yourself when you quit a drug, and hey don't beat yourself up for fucking up! it took me a very long time after i admitted i was a pisshead, till i actually calmed the drinking.
Giving Up ‘noids Aside from not having a proper shit in 8 months, my tolerance is through the roof and even vaping powder is not doing much so I've now intentionally run out. Anyone had any problems stopping smoking 'noids especially after a long period of sustained use?
Quitting Cocaine So I woke up this afternoon hung over from a night of binge drinking and snorting about a gram and a half of coke. I felt guilty, depressed, defeated, overwhelmed, sad, disappointed and discouraged. I grabbed my phone and like most of us in today's plastic society, Google'd "quit cocaine". I found this thread and began to read the posts.
I find so many parallels between my story and the collective sentiment here. I'm not sure what the faith of those here is and i respect everyones opinion. I am a man who believes in The Most High and it weighs heavy on my heart qnd soul when I give into temptation. I know that its up to me to quit, I know to avoid my triggers, I know I'm an addict and i need help but I'm reluctant to attend rehab mostly because of the cost. I no longer hang with my coke buddies, I changed my number, but its like every 7 days I get that itch, and honestly I'm sick of failure.
I hype my self up every week telling my self I'm gonna quit... this is the week but as soon as the weekend comes and sometimes sooner I find my mind racing and reasoning and convincing my self to just call the coke man. I feel like a hypocrite. I pray all week and try to live upright and when I'm tempted I give in like a weakling. No one besides my ex friends knows this about me.
I thought getting rid of my friends would fix my problems but i find myself alone at home drinking and using. I've even had suicidal thoughts the day after using. I feel depressed and I'm needing to be free of this bondage. I regret ever using coke. I'm 31 I started at 16. I'm a banker and when I'm at work I put on this front like I'm well to do but inside I feel wicked.
I recently quit my job, i just want to work a physical job grow a beard and move far far away from Miami. The gentleman who mentioned the fact that coke follows you. Every one I meet wants to drink and every one does coke. I want to talk to my mother but I cqnt have her worried about me... I really needed to vent and i thank everyone here for being honest and showing me I'm not alone
"I’m never drinking again"… So why do we? At some point in our lives most of us have uttered those famous last words. Can someone explain to me why we continue to drink on another occasion when we fully know the hideous consequences of heavy drinking?. Currently I'm suffering and have been for the last 12 or so hours.
Below - an example of what my hangover looks and feels like.
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I’ve quit smoking Yeah, I've quit innit, well easy to do as well considering I was rather sick the other day from taking a drag on on a ciggi. Tobacco free now.
2 days till i stop Well, im nearly there at the end of a very long road...
I have two days till i stop opiates, it will be the first time in ten years that I have not had some kind of opiate in my body! :yawn:
I've been drinking three juices a day, drinking detox tea and meditating daily.
Im scared but determined and I know that I have the power inside me to do it..
Something I have been meditating on:
I have no power over anything in this world, the only thing I have any control over is myself.
I will die one day, and when I do is utterly uncertain, therefore I should live for every moment.
Ive been praying every night, if anyone would like to think of me I would appreciate it so much
To all the buddhas, bodisattvas and holy beings,
please protect me, and all living beings from the various sufferings,
fears and dangers of samsara.
Please bestow your blessings on our bodys and minds.
Peace...Garyraaa1234
Narcotics anonymous? I'm still struggling with my problems and am thinking of signing up to Narcotics Anonymous.
Any thoughts or experience with this anyone?
I've found a meeting which is pretty close to where I live. Will it be helpful?
Can’t find help to stop Legal Highs! HELP!! I am a regular user of 'Legal Highs'. If i am to be honest i am addicted to them and they have fucked up my memory but i can't stop because simply there is no help there to stop taking legal highs. Went to my GP and they said i would have to quit Physically and Mentally alone because there is no treatments to these 'Legal Highs', I wish someone somewhere could help me simply because i've been literally lured into this Phase where if i try to stop i get really angry and pissed off. Cravings don't disapeer. HELP? ANYONE? PLEASE!
I am a month clean but I am considering a hit please advise me Hi guys
I took alpha ppp / nrg 3 / mpa / anything I could get my hands on - for 3 months
I then had a traumatic event in my life and I could not get my hands on any for a week.
I then quit for a month ( the first week I slept none stop )
The alpha ppp which I took the most often is well known to be very addictive / fiendish.
I am now a month clean, fit strong and healthy but hungering for drugs.
The opportunity is going to present itself shortly, and im so so bored of being sober, i want to get high, i dont want this normality, im scared
