HELP! I think I’ve gone and broken my brain First, the basics. I embarked on the journey to hell that is IV meth addiction about 7 months ago, and I typically binge for 4-6 days every 4-6 weeks. By day 3, I'm invariably having visual and auditory disturbances (ie flickers, ripples but not intense or vivid enough to qualify as hallucinations), a severe compulsion to pick at my skin, and all the rest of the tweaker usual suspects.
After my last dose, i sleep and eat and feel sad and guilty for a few hours. It usually takes me 2-3 days to feel clear-headed and capable of intelligent conversation, to no longer feel high or spun out. I spend a few weeks struggling with mild depression and loss of pleasure in things (anhedonia), but aside from the challenges of being a dopaminergically-challenged novelist who is incapable of appreciating beauty, it's become my predictable fiend-binge-recover routine.
Anyway this comedown is markedly different and I'm wondering why. The product was higher quality than usual, if that matters. From early Thursday to early Sunday, I shared about 2.5g with a friend, mostly shooting quarters with a little smoking in between. I remember almost nothing about the binge. It was like I couldn't create new memories while on the stuff. I always get spacey but this was extreme. In fact, I'm still really struggling. I will think about walking the dogs, e.g., and a moment later be unsure whether I already walked them or just thought about walking them.
I have been trying to write this post for many hours and I'm only succeeding now because I'm having some lucidity that I've been lacking for days, up until a few minutes ago. For a couple days I've been psychotic. Vivid hallucinations, paranoia, confusion, emotional flatness, etc. I have no idea what I've been doing. I've gone mad. My last shot of meth was 24 hours prior to this post.
Why might I be psychotic when I do not usually have this reaction? Is it likely to go away when the meth is fully out of my system? If it lingers, might it be permanent? I'm starting to feel confused again, like reality is receding. I'm frightened. I don't want to tell my doctor I've been using but I may need to get medical attention. I don't know.
My brother is dying because of drugs Hi all ,
The details are not important but I want new users to NEVER make stupid mistakes like my brother .....
Simple shit like hydration , not mixing stuff , not drinking alcohol at the same time , not KNOWING IN ADVANCE the mental effects of what u are taking so u have a strategy to deal with the problem .
PARTA , KB .12
I drink every night… I wish to stop! As long as I can remember since sometime in May I have pretty much had alcohol every Evening. I drink A half bottle of GIN 35cl and two cans of Stella. The space of time I drink in is from 6pm till 10pm when I fall asleep. I am working ATM and when I do I work on an island doing a 9-5 job everyday, that's 7 days a week for 7/8 months. (I only have three weeks left) Anyway you might think this is an expensive habit drinking £15 worth of booze everyday but it's actually free. because i steal it. I have been saying to myself every night while drinking i want to stop but then at the end of my shift the next day i take my booze and start drinking (alone) I watch TV shows and play games online with some mates. I think this has to end..
I'm a drunk.
I'm a thief
I'm a bad person.
But my new life starts tomorrow.. I vow not to be this person anymore.12
Short-Term Effects of Alcohol Alcohol is a potent central nervous system depressant with a wide range of effects. The amount you consume effects how drunk you will get.
The effects of alcohol change over time. When you first start drinking. You may feel relaxed. But the more you drink, the more side effects you begin to feel, like blurred vision and slurred speech.
Euphoria is an effect that alcohol has on people. Essentially, getting the euphoric effect means you will feel an overall mood improvement. You may be more self-confident when drinking. Your attention span shortens and you may feel more flushed. Whether your believe it or now, your judgment won't be as good as you think it is and you may well say the first thing that comes to mind or do things that you would not normally do. You will also start to have trouble with fine movements such as signing their name. With more alcohol, lethargy may start to set in. Lethargy is the side effect where you may become sleepy. You have trouble remembering things that happened, even recent things you have done. Body movements are uncoordinated and you may react to situations more slowly. Your vision becomes blurry and they have trouble seeing.
Confusion is also caused by drinking. You may get confused and very emotional, less likely to respond to pain. If you get in a fight while you are drunk, you will not feel the pain until the alcohol wears off.
Stupor is another short term effect of alcohol. In this condition movement is seriously impaired and you may lapse in and out of consciousness. You can slip into a coma and become completely unaware of your surroundings. At this point, the risk to the body is very high due to alcohol poisoning. Loss of body functions can begin like losing control of the bladder, breathing and heart rate.
Drinking large amounts of alcohol can lead to coma and even death. If you want to avoid these risks, the best way to do it is to avoid alcohol. You can start being effected by alcohol from the very first sip, whether you realize it or not.
Excessive doses of alcohol can cause long term as well as short-term side effects. Some of the long term effects are: slowing, blurred vision, vertigo, amnesia, ataxia, and hangovers.
The liver is part of the body's filtration system. This means when it is damaged it allows certain toxins to build up, leading to symptoms of Jaundice. This is what you are seeing when a person's skin begins to turn yellow.
Many people don’t think of alcohol as a drug but the fact is that it is a drug. It is just as lethal as any other drug can be. When you overuse any drug you can expect consequences. This is also true with alcohol. Many people think that it is okay to have a beer once in a while or that if you drink at home you won’t be hurting anyone.
Think again. You are hurting yourself and by hurting yourself you are hurting the ones that care about you. Whether you drink some at home or at a bar, alcohol can have the same effect on you. One sip and the process begins.
Find Out More:
In order to start making changes with your relationship with alcohol please visit the Alcohol Free Social Life website where you will learn specific techniques and examples of how to make changes now.
Alcohol: Harmless or not? Although I'm sure everyone'll understand why having just spent the last 10 days nursing my mother in hospital for severe alcohol related illness and had my own brushes with it I'm a bit biased on the subject. What are your views on the drug? Harmless or not? Give us your stories...123
I’ve quit smoking Yeah, I've quit innit, well easy to do as well considering I was rather sick the other day from taking a drag on on a ciggi. Tobacco free now.
Shits getting outta hand…… I've been officially been diagnosed with alcoholism, and don't know what to do about it. My mental issues have been out of control and I find myself in the same situation a Psy. In a really fucked up way, I have no intention of stopping, not that I could if I tried, the worst part about it is I'm a pathetic drunk; not even any fun or funny, just plain fuckin pathetic. I spent over £200 on drink on Saturday, and that was for ME....no other fucker, just ME.
I've found myself often thinking about just drinking myself to oblivion, which I tihnk I could do, tried opening up my wrists and that failed, tried hanging myself that failed, but booze.......
Fuck this, safe.
2 days till i stop Well, im nearly there at the end of a very long road...
I have two days till i stop opiates, it will be the first time in ten years that I have not had some kind of opiate in my body! :yawn:
I've been drinking three juices a day, drinking detox tea and meditating daily.
Im scared but determined and I know that I have the power inside me to do it..
Something I have been meditating on:
I have no power over anything in this world, the only thing I have any control over is myself.
I will die one day, and when I do is utterly uncertain, therefore I should live for every moment.
Ive been praying every night, if anyone would like to think of me I would appreciate it so much
To all the buddhas, bodisattvas and holy beings,
please protect me, and all living beings from the various sufferings,
fears and dangers of samsara.
Please bestow your blessings on our bodys and minds.
Peace...Garyraaa1234
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My name is Chrispydelic and I am an alcoholic. OK. I finally need help. My alcoholism has got totally out of control. I have had full-on DT's and often wake up in the middle of the night wit mild DT's.
I think I should see a Dr, but what do I say? I am actually kinda frightened as some of my symptoms point to things which could be rather severe! :(
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